God is Enough

Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. - Psalms 37:4
"When we trust our lives to the unseen but ever-present God, He will write our lives into His story and every last one of them will turn out to be a great read, with a grand ending!" Beth Moore 

Sometimes, more often than not, I sit in awe of our Lord.  He is All-Sufficient, He is my El Shaddai... He is enough, and when we turn to Him, we will never come away wanting... Never come away feeling unloved, unimportant, never feeling lonely...  "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."  "Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power (grace) may rest on me.  That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.  For when I am weak, I am made strong." 2 Corinthians 12: 9-10.  He is so capable of granting our hearts desires and He SO wants to do that for each and every one of us.  All we have to do is surrender our desires to Him and make His will prevalant in our daily lives.  And learn from the lessons He gives us, when we are broken and surrender to him, he will pour out his grace upon us.  He will always be enough, and grant us the desires of our hearts, we just have to be willing to wait on His perfect timing!  Yes, He tells me this all the time, it's a recurring theme...WHEN will I finally get it??? :)... And let Him write my story, with my grand ending, without me trying to interject my own path...trying to speed things along, which ends up being a huge detour....and brings me back to where I started??  Seriously, no more detours!

Not too long after my divorce, I started Beth Moore's Bible study, "Esther" with a small group of my favorite girls at my church.  Some would call it "irony" but I am sure it was "God's Timing"...  God knew exactly what I would be going through and exactly what I needed from His Word and who I needed to share the study with.  Ironically, (yeah, I know...funny, haha), the study itself had a lot to teach me about His timing..  So here I was, studying about God's timing, IN God's timing...exactly when I needed it most.  I love His attention to detail, His humor, His ability to know exactly what we need to hear, and when we need to hear it.  I adore my Lord!  I sometimes wonder what the heck I'm doing when I miss my quiet time.  We all go through stages of spiritual growth, and then maybe it will level out for a while, and we coast through life on spiritual auto-pilot, sometimes we even drift away from a personal relationship with God.  Thankfully,God knows when to draw us back and make us hungry for His Word...  I can recall several times over the last few years that my heart has just been plain "on fire" for God, and I can feel those embers being stirred again.  It's always so exciting when you start getting that hunger for deeper relationship with the Lord, you crave it, you can't get enough of it, and I'm praying that's what I'm heading for right now.  I miss those hours on end spent pouring over His word, and just being eaten up by what He has to show me, little treasures here and there, hints of what is to come, acceptance of what is not, courage to overcome what you think you can't handle, preparation for things we have no earthly idea that are headed our way.  Yesterday, I read the first chapter of "Not a Fan..." by Kyle Idleman and was inspired to dig deep back into the Word of God.  I do want to be a "completely. committed. follower." of Christ, not just a fan... 

And so begins a new journey in my life...can't wait to see where He takes me this time!